gnomen 1 - DIARY of
the DONKEY: Nov. 20, 1998, Kislev 2, 5759. The renewed calculation of the New
Stellar Calendar of Big Fish, Leviathan is not yet ready. Paolo is working on
it. The conclusion of the Virtues of Esther and the Tribunal of Mordechai
ha-Tzadik (Esther 2) is an extraordinary revelation that touches more
concretely for the first time the question of the Hidden Goel, Haim, when he
was in the world. In the Book of Esther 1 was revealed the history of the
Initial Signs in the School of the Essenes revealing the hitherto hidden
history of the Star that Astounds. The Book of Esther 2concentrates on the exposition of the name
ASHER, also filling in the historical gap concerning the Hidden Servants of
God, the true Hidden Tzadikim, who maintained the merit for the continuation of
the world, especially in the past 2000 years.
Gnomen 2 - I have
written here the title The Book of the School of Esther ‘ The New ‘Shin’ and
the New ‘Vav’ of the FR - The Tablets of Justice of the Tribunal of Mordechai
ha-Tzadik of this Esther 3 which is part of the New Scroll of the Final
Redemption. These are the New Letters of SHUSHAN representing the New Purim of
the FR. I know yet nothing of the contents of this text.
Gnomen 3 - The Scroll
of the Final Redemption, once it opens does not close. Each text has to be
closed but the Scroll goes on because it represents the living exposition of
the Fourth Generation in course.
Gnomen 4 - (follows
chapter 13 of Esther 2) In truth I passed through my BarMitzvahSchool without knowing anything of the
Torah. Only when I was 18 with my entrance into YeshivaUniversity did I begin to walk on the path
of the halacha. I was always amazed about everything. I was alive. That seemed
to me amazing enough. But here there were Jews who even wore tefillin when they
spoke on the telephone with their girl-friends.
Gnomen 5 - I remember
Rabbi Riskin’s clamoring vociferously about that one. “I passed him by in the
corridor” he screamed with talmudic joy, “and I stopped in my tracks to see the
wonder. Did he really have a direct line to the Ribono shel ‘Olam!”
You can see, then,
that I already had a full Jewish education before I got trapped into the
Habad-cage. Had I had a girl-friend, I would not have spoken to her on the
telephone while wearing tefillin. I took to heart that ‘direct line’
expression. It was the ‘direct line’ that I desired. The problem was that every
time I searched for the ‘direct line’ I found myself searching for a
girl-friend as well.
Gnomen 6 - It was not
easy such a blotch on my conscious, so I went to the Campus Freudian Sage with
a German Jewish beard to ask him why such a mitzvah as the circumcision was
completely ruining my ‘direct line’ with the Master of the world. “Are you not
afraid of Him?” asked the Rabbi Doctor with German lucidity. “Of course I am
afraid of Him and certainly I wish not to do anything against His will. The
problem is that instead of the ‘direct line’ that I must reach, everything I
see and touch makes a ‘direct line’ to the middle section. Have you no remedy,
Doctor, to help me get out of this body before it drags me under?
Gnomen 7 - “What do
you mean ‘everything’ ?” his eyes lit up with psychoanalytic precision, joyous
for my readiness to strip my mind before him. “Everything” I said with
emphasis. “If it were only the problem of a girl-friend why would I have come
to you? No, Doctor, it’s not that. Somewhere along the line, I exited from all
distinctions of male, female, animal, plant life and even inanimate objects. Everything
finds a way to excite me. The entire world, it seems to me, has come to squish
and squash me with sexual desire.
Gnomen 8 -“Do you think the situation is very serious,
Doctor?” “Not at all” he said smiling with the solution on his beard. “It is a
simple case of Yetzer ha-ra. You’ll get married. It’ll pass. See how clearly
you expound on yourself. If there were a real problem, you would not be able to
do such. Do not worry and don’t be afraid. You’re not meshuga. Have a little
more fear of Him and then you’ll get married afterwards and all this will go
away. Zai a menshe un daiga nisht, vet zain gut.”
He’s certainly more
rational than Freud, I concluded in my thoughts. The difference is that Freud
never understood the Yetzer ha-ra and so he saw every evil as rooted in the
sub-conscious for reasons of its own. But you can’t blame the negatives for the
kinds of photos that were taken, can you!
Gnomen 9 -Nevertheless, that direct-line tefillin
discourse of R. Riskin set me off into a long meditation and in the end was the
real catalyst of my leaving the University and seeking the ‘direct line’ with
Habad. Riskin’s quip irked my growing inner warp and excited my desire to know
why my love could not yet be satisfied by tightly binding myself to the tefillin
straps. Something was desperately wrong with me, I reasoned, and even for
Minhha Shabbat I could not sing freely with the others.
Gnomen 10 - At the
Yeshiva University, I found German-Jewish-American halachic Judaism. The
German-Jewish part was quite strict and the American part quite watered down
but, in general, I was seeing active, halachic Judaism in the context of
Traditional studies. I had already a fair knowledge of modern Hebrew, having
studied it in WeequahicHigh School in Newark, New Jersey, with Mr. Chasen, peace be with
him, for 3 years. I had also been to Israel the summer before beginning at
the University, having won that trip to Israel for 7 weeks for high grades.
Mr. Chasen sent me with a Shomer ha-Tzair (non-religious Zionist) group.
Gnomen 11 - I myself
had no idea of the various groups of Zionists, religious Zionists, socialist
Zionists, non-religious Zionists etc. etc. and I never belonged to any group.
Indeed, I never loved being part of groups of people and I never really allowed
myself to mix into any group, feeling myself too individualistic to ‘divide’ or
‘share’ myself with others.My
individualism was very spiritual or, at least was taken by me as a question of
my spiritual identity which, however, I had yet to delve into and try to
define. I was born with strong inner faith in the One Living God, thank God,
I’ve never known what doubts on this matter even mean.
Gnomen 12 - I
believed, of course, in the Pesah of the Jewish people and I desired to study
Torah and to know much more. I was therefore very enthusiastic about the YeshivaUniversity and the daily program of Jewish
studies while greatly appreciating the double-program of secular subjects in
which I majored in classical Greek. In truth I was a frustrated study-monger. I
was always in the thought of using all my time for studying and reading but I
was always thwarted from accomplishing that desire. I was always in conflict
with wasted time and the conflict remained because I never used my time as I
would have desired.
Gnomen 13 - Diary: see
below (not brought here) diagram of the 13 New Mazalot in their respective
positions in their convergence with the 13 Stars of the Shoshanah.
Gnomen 14 - some notes
received by Giuseppe in the Tent: the New Mazalot give over the comprehension
of oneself. In time, in the events (of the world and in one’s personal life)
the Mazalot will come to explain themselves progressively;
the ‘eye’ of Balaam is
representative of the New Mazalot, that is, the New Level of Prophecy that
derives from the New Mazalot.
the ‘eye’ of Balaam
permits the person to see himself, after one is on the level of always speaking
just words and doing just actions; this is the Third Eye ‘above’ that brings
the words and the actions to their completion in the proper and true
prospective desired;
Gnomen 15 - the New
Mazalot are the new roots of the future; this means that the person born under
the New Mazal is already rooted in the ‘sources’ of the Final Redemption;
‘shtum ha-’ain’ and
‘gilui ‘ainaim’ are three eyes;
in one sense, every
person has a third eye, possibly called the ‘eye of prophetic vision’;
the ‘third eye’ of the
Donkey who eats Bread opens the eye of prophetic vision for the world; in order
for mankind to receive this third eye, it needs the third eye of the Donkey;
the third eye
represents the true Middle Way between the extremes;
the third eye is
hidden above the brain, slightly above the forehead (the Three Eyes of the
Donkey (received in Giuseppe’s dream) were in a line, as the 3 Stars in the
Sign of the Stars) -
Gnomen 16 - DIARY:
some hidden Signs of Esther: in Davide Levi’s dream, Peretz says “Shin, Sheen,
it is the Dead Donkey speaking to you”. The double Shin refers to Shushan.
Together the 2 Shins give over the New Ktav Shushan. The New Ktav Shushan
allows the writing of the New Scroll of Esther, in the permission of the Final
Goel, Haim.
Gnomen 17 - DIARY: our
Michail Esther (who is from Persia (Iran) originally) had her work
concerning the Cuneiform Tablets that she possesses requested from someone in
Beersheva, someone from BenGurionUniversity. At the same time, by an
obviously ‘providential’ error, she received a facs which was of the Queen
Pahlevi, wife of the ex Shah of Persia who wrote the facs to some poet
in the United States. These are ‘hidden signs’: the
New Kingdom of the School of Esther of Beersheva is beginning to come unto its
Reign among the universal kingdoms (the extensions of Babylon, Persia, Greece,
Rome, of Ahhashverosh. This is in conjunction to our Web-Site Camillo.
Gnomen 18 - The Hherem
Mi-Deoraita of the Five Tablets of the Pact (which is on the Web-site Camillo)
is bound to the 5 Stars of the Tribunal of Mordechai ha-Tzadik. Since the end
of the 13th year and the death of Beniamino noster, the Mission of the Donkey
who eats Bread was allowed to continue as the successful mission of the last
prophecy in Malachi and the final prophesied New Pact of the Prophet Jeremy,
the Signs of Purim abound and the Correspondences between the Tribunal and the
Kingdom of Esther are continual. Also in the 14th General Volume of the Book of
the Stars (written in the 15th year of the Completed Signs and still in
hand-writing) was full with ‘hidden Purim Signs’ hidden in the Festival of San Remo.
Gnomen 19 - All the
Purim Signs represent the Hidden and Strategic Ways in which the Final Redemption
arrives to the Jewish people.
Now Iraq has taken a 4 day beating. This
is to cleanse the Babylonian Rosh Star from its poison of chemical weapons. In
the meantime, a new stellar formation has been formed in the triangular Israel, America, Great Britain. Probably the next to have its
bully broken down is Shiite Islamics. For the Compass of Esther is unwinding.
See how the Greek Orthodox Star has separated Russia and cut it off from its own
shield of Salvation.
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Gnomen 20 - That
‘direct line’ tefillin joke had had meaning for me. Most of the Jews among the
Yitzhhak Elhhanan program of YeshivaUniversity, not the teachers who were, in
general, rabbis, but the students, seemed to me ‘part-time’ Jews. I had not the
experience to measure meaningfully the various classes of Jews that I found at
the University. In general, however, it seemed to me that those who have had
the great fortune of studying the true Tradition must be fully dedicated to it.
